But, truth be known, I've been in a slump for a while. A good long while. Normally, I'm not one to open up about those things you'd just rather not talk about but I'm at a place now where I think that I need to open up a bit. Not only to help myself but maybe help someone else reading this can also relate. So, can we sit and have a chat?
|Our living room where we invited guests to sit and chat with us.|
Oh, before I get started...the pictures I am sharing were taken shortly after we built our home in '06. I wanted to have a bed and breakfast and we were going to use part of our home to do so. These photos were used on my website. You'll see the connection in a bit, I promise. Anyway, a few years ago, I had major back surgery that really set me back physically. Shortly after that, I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue. So, I closed the bed and breakfast.
As a result, my physical health has been making a gradual and steady decline. Plus, the prescription pain meds was causing some unwanted side effects. Sleeping long hours, no energy and constant pain prevented me from getting out and about (not even going to church!). I have become quite the recluse. There has been no desire to cook, garden, craft, scrapbook and even cleaning house have taken a back seat. My 'get up and go' and got up and gone. :/
Along with the physical decline, my mental, emotional and spiritual well being have all suffered as well. I have to admit that I deal with depression from time to time. No suicidal tendencies, but just not enjoying life. I refuse to take medication for it because I already deal with adverse side effects from the other medications I take.
|My farmhouse country kitchen!|
Several months ago, I realized that wishing and hoping that I would get better wasn't going to make it happen and wallowing in self-pity wasn't helping either! It has taken me this long to finally admit that I was allowing the devil to win the battle and I needed to get back on track. My God is big and, with His help, I can overcome these obstacles. That's the first step. It was time to pull myself up by my boot straps (or as others would say...put on my big girl panties) and do something about it.
|The Dining Room where breakfast was served to our guests and chatting that would last for hours.|
Little baby steps are taking place. I have joined a gym to use the heated pool for gentle exercising. I recently started going to a nutritionist who has gotten me started on vitamins/minerals such as magnesium and Coq10 to deal with the pain. Several months ago, I started decreasing some of the pain meds and am almost at the point now to start decreasing some more. Our plan is to get me back on track with the use of the vitamins/minerals, good nutrition and weight loss. Goodness knows, I haven't been eating like I should and it's amazing how the body suffers when there is a deficiency.
Now, I'm sure you're scratching your head and wondering what all this has to do with the photos I'm sharing. It's not just because I am wanting to do a little mini-house tour. I love being able to show you our home as God has blessed us immensely. No, I'm sharing with you because this is what my home USED to look like. Beautiful and uncluttered rooms.
|The Playroom ~ decorated with vintage childhood toys and books|
When there's no energy and no desire to keeping your home looking like this, it becomes cluttered, unkempt and really dusty! I am embarrassed to admit it but that's what has happened. I have forgotten how to do housecleaning in an orderly fashion without wearing myself out. Seriously. Some of the medication side effects are fatigue, memory loss and brain fog but I think a good part of it is because I am so overwhelmed about where to start and what to do.
|The Keepsake Room ~ decorated with memories of Grandma and Grandpa|
You, my blogging friends, are such a blessing to me and I so enjoy your friendships. Thank you for being part of my little blogging world. I pray you have a wonderful day!~